Float

Slowly drifting into madness, I explore a way

To lose my investment in every single day

I’ve squandered the years I was meant to act like this

Instead I spent them aloft in a lightless, 

tomb of commitment that I knew would kill me

And here I lay slain by the theory I’ve proven

Born into slavery, in my father’s likeness

Indebted to listlessness, tired and obvious, 

Sleeping insomniac, riddled with worry

Product of life that began in a hurry

Don’t come to close, don’t come to close

These hooks don’t grapple, these hands can’t clutch any more
Take it all in stride, don’t let your pride

Get in the way of life 

hey pretty.

I forgot your name for a time

Blinded by a shining light

Emitting from a past love

I could not see you

Woke anew as I grew in years

a call from you in tears

a random act of universe

brought us back to this

But we rearranged, the different feelings

Initially I, was not too devoted, shame I…

Couldn’t quite let go of my anchor

But you had yours painted behind your ears

As if to say your head would ultimately bring you down

And it has

Once I reciprocated

You lost your way, and fell into the arms of, wonder

What could I do? But take out this drum and wear it so proudly on my sleeve

I could barely breathe

That oceans air was choking me up, I wanted to throw up

And in many ways I already had

I told you that I’d jump

But you gave me no where to land

We all, knew that this would happen

I heard it in the awkward silence

Saw it in our desperate violence

Now that you’re gone I’ve realized too, 

I only loved the idea of you

We all, knew that this would happen

I heard it in the awkward silence

Saw it in our desperate violence

Now that you’re gone I’ve realized too, 

I only loved the idea of you

I only loved the idea of you 

The Prettiest People in the World

Perfection in case of emergency break the skin on my favorite employ

I woke up in a room full of pleases, I was taken apart by a boy

If you wanna be made a partner, take the gin and pour it on your wife

I woke up in a room with computers, fell asleep on a pile of life 

Hang a painting on your wall, I’ll smash it I’ll smash it

But only because I liked it, oh yeah everyone likes it

Paint some words underneath it

Maybe substance abuse?

You’re the drug I was told not to do

Not to do

Consumption was raised by dirty tree, I was broke until now

Apart from my home I’m a homeless guy, take a lymph from my cow

If you’re open to my suggestions, eat a thousand more pounds

Maybe one day I’ll grow a body, and take all of you out

The prettiest cancer, the ugliest angel 

I lost the remote and I can’t fight the angle

I’m drifting to sleep in my friend’s old Toyota

I’m back with my popcorn, let’s start the show

What

There is no one left at this party
They all left so long ago, to chase the feeling of drinking all alone
Put your hands up if you’re dying a slow death
And your last resort is to scream out loud, and strain your voice tonight
Oh, well I always knew it would come to this
Me dancing alone in an empty room
Swinging my arms from side to side
Hoping that somewhere that melody’s still alive
You can’t kill an idea
But you can kill everyone who believes in it
And eventually, no one will want to believe it anymore

I fought hard, I spilled blood for all of this
I fought tooth and nail, I was poor and pale through all of this
Oh, but I will not go quietly 
Cut my body for all to see
And spill all of it out on the table
This is all of me

True artists they stick by their art
True liars they pick it apart
Hang yourself from a note and I promise I won’t cut you down when you start to choke
We’re building it with or without you
We’re building it with or without you
You won’t ever look at us the same
When we’re shooting right up through your veins 

Could you lie with me just for a bit?
The truth can wait for us out there
I was piecing it all together
But no one has ever cared
Until we thought we had a solution
And put all our faith in a god
And then screamed when we saw he left us
In the darkness to rot

I fought hard, I spilled blood for all of this
I fought tooth and nail, I was poor and pale through all of this
Oh, but I will not go quietly 
Cut my body for all to see
And spill all of it out on the table
This is all of me 
I fought hard, I spilled blood for all of this
I fought tooth and nail, I was poor and pale through all of this
Oh, but I will not go quietly 
Cut my body for all to see
And spill all of it out on the table
This is all of me

And you lost your footing I get it
But don’t try to drag us down
We’re not your friends
We’re just trying to keep breathing now

There is no one left at this party

They all left so long ago, to chase the feeling of drinking all alone

Put your hands up if you’re dying a slow death

And your last resort is to scream out loud, and strain your voice tonight

Oh, well I always knew it would come to this

Me dancing alone in an empty room

Swinging my arms from side to side

Hoping that somewhere that melody’s still alive

You can’t kill an idea

But you can kill everyone who believes in it

And eventually, no one will want to believe it anymore

I fought hard, I spilled blood for all of this

I fought tooth and nail, I was poor and pale through all of this

Oh, but I will not go quietly 

Cut my body for all to see

And spill all of it out on the table

This is all of me

True artists they stick by their art

True liars they pick it apart

Hang yourself from a note and I promise I won’t cut you down when you start to choke

We’re building it with or without you

We’re building it with or without you

You won’t ever look at us the same

When we’re shooting right up through your veins 

Could you lie with me just for a bit?

The truth can wait for us out there

I was piecing it all together

But no one has ever cared

Until we thought we had a solution

And put all our faith in a god

And then screamed when we saw he left us

In the darkness to rot

I fought hard, I spilled blood for all of this

I fought tooth and nail, I was poor and pale through all of this

Oh, but I will not go quietly 

Cut my body for all to see

And spill all of it out on the table

This is all of me 

I fought hard, I spilled blood for all of this

I fought tooth and nail, I was poor and pale through all of this

Oh, but I will not go quietly 

Cut my body for all to see

And spill all of it out on the table

This is all of me

And you lost your footing I get it

But don’t try to drag us down

We’re not your friends

We’re just trying to keep breathing now

Challenge me I’m begging for an animal inside of me a furious ferocious thing
A wedding but without a ring 
A flower pot without a worm
A fire but without a burn
I lie awake to fall asleep but then I dream in lucid states
Two of me are bickering, over drugs and finer things
Basketball is played to offer penance to a dead white guy
Losing is a sport itself and crown him king of all that’s helpless
Find a quiet room to fill with screams so loud they shatter health, if
I was born another soul I’d find a way to drink his wealth
I hope to offer solace in that I am finally crawling off this shelf tonight
The lamb is still inside the cage
The lamb is still inside the cage
It can’t be killed, it can’t be tamed
It can’t be killed, it can’t be tamed
What a shame, what a name

Challenge me I’m begging for an animal inside of me a furious ferocious thing

A wedding but without a ring 

A flower pot without a worm

A fire but without a burn

I lie awake to fall asleep but then I dream in lucid states

Two of me are bickering, over drugs and finer things

Basketball is played to offer penance to a dead white guy

Losing is a sport itself and crown him king of all that’s helpless

Find a quiet room to fill with screams so loud they shatter health, if

I was born another soul I’d find a way to drink his wealth

I hope to offer solace in that I am finally crawling off this shelf tonight

The lamb is still inside the cage

The lamb is still inside the cage

It can’t be killed, it can’t be tamed

It can’t be killed, it can’t be tamed

What a shame, what a name

You are on Earth
There is no cure for that
You are alone
I’ve never heard of that fire in your gut
Think I give a fuck? 
Who needs a fire when your whole life is fueled by…what?
God I wish that I knew
I lost inspiration and the will to create something new
My arm is asleep
My arm is asleep
My arm is asleep
My arm is my arm is a microcosm of the entire past year
I’ve loved and lost and I’ve found myself back here with you
Clawing at air just to see what it’s made of
Drowning in thoughts and language
Gasping for real fucking moments
Where are they for fuck’s sake?
My arm is asleep
My arm is asleep
My arm is asleep
You are on Earth 
There is no cure for that
You are on Earth 
There is no cure for that
End scene

You are on Earth

There is no cure for that

You are alone

I’ve never heard of that fire in your gut

Think I give a fuck? 

Who needs a fire when your whole life is fueled by…what?

God I wish that I knew

I lost inspiration and the will to create something new

My arm is asleep

My arm is asleep

My arm is asleep

My arm is my arm is a microcosm of the entire past year

I’ve loved and lost and I’ve found myself back here with you

Clawing at air just to see what it’s made of

Drowning in thoughts and language

Gasping for real fucking moments

Where are they for fuck’s sake?

My arm is asleep

My arm is asleep

My arm is asleep

You are on Earth 

There is no cure for that

You are on Earth 

There is no cure for that

End scene

Jack of all trades 
Master of none
Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son
Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue
I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”
But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 

Weird little guy, here’s my disguise
I’ll man the earth if you take up the sky
Why won’t God show?
Why won’t God show?
I’ve spent a long time just trying to keep us afloat 
Weird little guy, here’s my disguise
I’ll man the earth if you take up the sky
Why won’t God show?
Why won’t God show?
I’ve spent a long time just trying to keep us afloat 
Jack of all trades 
Master of none
Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son
Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue
I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”
But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
Jack of all trades 
Master of none
Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son
Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue
I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”
But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
Jack of all trades 
Master of none
Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son
Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue
I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”
But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
Jack of all trades 
Master of none
Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son
Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue
I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”
But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
Jack of all trades 
Master of none
Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son
Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue
I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”
But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon
It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 
And this is too soon 

Jack of all trades 

Master of none

Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son

Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue

I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”

But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

Weird little guy, here’s my disguise

I’ll man the earth if you take up the sky

Why won’t God show?

Why won’t God show?

I’ve spent a long time just trying to keep us afloat 

Weird little guy, here’s my disguise

I’ll man the earth if you take up the sky

Why won’t God show?

Why won’t God show?

I’ve spent a long time just trying to keep us afloat 

Jack of all trades 

Master of none

Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son

Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue

I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”

But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

Jack of all trades 

Master of none

Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son

Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue

I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”

But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

Jack of all trades 

Master of none

Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son

Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue

I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”

But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

Jack of all trades 

Master of none

Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son

Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue

I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”

But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

Jack of all trades 

Master of none

Dear Mr. Asshole your bastard’s a son

Fast on my feet, slow on my tongue

I speak the words while you bathe in the sun, “I’m for real.”

But my actions are fake and I can’t find the tape I recorded myself in a room

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon

It plays on a loop in my brain and I can’t find the remote to change it 

And this is too soon 

just desserts.

I’ve been waiting patiently 

For this moment to finally breathe

Into my ear and whisper softly

"You were right about everything"

Now who’s laughing? Hahaha

Now who’s laughing? Hahaha

Now who’s laughing? I am I am

Basking in the ambiance

Goin on a ski trip

Gonna eat some deep dish

That’s somebody’s wife man, that’s somebody’s wife man

Goin on a ski trip

Gonna eat some deep dish

That’s somebody’s wife man, that’s somebody’s wife man

You get what you pay for, pay for what you get

You get what you pay for, pay for what you get 

You get what you pay for, pay for what you get 

You get what you pay for, pay for what you get angel

Shopping

I watched from afar

I lost the remote

I will not let life bite the back of my throat

Hold still

The silence it speaks to you 

Now if you’ll excuse me

I’ve got some feet to bruise

I saw the redhead

Crawl to the door

I peeked from the hole in the wall as I knelt on the floor

Praying for someone, something to guide me

But when I looked around there was nothing beside me

Tongue inside a closed fist

Yes I am, homeless

I fill in for anesthesiologists

Now I’ll state the obvious:

You’re under attack

The virus is your honesty and that is what’s holding you back 

happy birthday

I’m losing my fucked mind

I’m having nightmares a lot

Your breath was on my neck

And I was trying to rot

I’m online talking to sluts

I’m probably in a rut

And yet I’m leaving for the schools on Friday mornings

You were all that I knew

My phone is splitting in two

Between the people I love

And those I never meant to 

I’m dating myself

I’m berating an elf

I stay up late seeking help

And then I get overwhelmed 

Where’s my philanthropic, group on a mission

Because only charity will save my pitiful ass from another shitty decision. 

Happy fuckin, birthday fuckin, lover from another time

Happy fuckin, birthday fuckin, lover from another time

Happy fuckin, birthday, fuckin, lover from when I was fine

Happy fuckin, birthday fuckin, lover from another time

When I was fine

Lover from another fuckin time